To Alexis

I wish that the last thing that we talked about wasn't about boys, proms, and awkward dates.
I wish that the last time I left you wasn't just with a wave and a whisper goodbye while you were on the phone.

Instead, I wish that when I left the door I looked at you one more time.
And given you a huge hug.
And told you that I love you.
And that I look up to you.
Your smile.
Your laugh.
Your easygoing personality.
I wish I would have told you that I recommended you to work with Tonya, because you would be the best. That you are so mature and would do a much better job than I ever could. And that Tonya would learn so much from you.
I wish I would have talked to you about all of our memories: this is the place, anything and everything that we went where we could bring friends, gold and green balls, sewing class, the macey's kid's club, christmas eve swimming, Holly's birthdays, and just being with you when you came over to play with Holly.
I wish that I would have told you that everytime we would pass Payson, Holly would say, "Alexis used to live here!" And showed us the direction of your old house.
I wish I would have told you that everytime I hear anything by Faith Hill, I think of you.
I wish I would have told you that I loved yours and Amanda's Christmas card.
I wish I would have told you that you are just like a sister to us.
I wish I would have told you that Holly is so lucky to have a best friend like you.
I wish I would have told you that if you ever were to leave, there would be a irreplaceable hole in my heart.

I miss you and love you, Alexis.
And will see your smiling face again.


Adam said...

That was beautiful Lauren. It takes talent to make people feel something, and you made me cry. I love you. Tell your family I love them too.

Katie said...

That was so sweet Lu. Alexis is such a wonderful girl. I love the way you write, Adam's right, it's so beautiful. See you tomorrow morning love.

Mike, Torie and Boys said...

That was so sweet.
What a cute girl. So sorry. Love you...

Sheryl said...

Thank you for so eloquently sharing your feelings, Lauren. Alexis was lucky to have you all as extended family and additional sisters. She knows you love her!