i've been waiting for this beloved day to see it. and hear it in full.
so, here comes my last night dilemma.
i asked myself,
'self, should I buy this, to have and to hold and to love dearly with my two hands in a week-ish- and save some money on some other musical beauties, like spoon's new album?
or this and listen to it now and on my way to work tomorrow?'
or of course, drive to my local wal-mart, target, etc. and cross my fingers that they have it, or wait until tomorrow to go to graywhale and purchase for the whopping $13.99.
(i'm kind of, mostly anti-itunes store. so that's never been an option.)
i love having physical cds, and promised myself to buy this in cd-form months ago. so, as you can see (or maybe not), this was a dilemma.
conclusion: i drove to work today listening to some new vampire weekend tunes.
it was wonderful. and i don't feel at all guilty. and glad that i am only four dollars poorer. i know that some may think i'm crazy for a. even considering that a dilemma, b. wondering why i would ever purchase an album like this in mp3 format. c. even purchasing non-local music at all anymore. d. it's just 10 songs. a cd. and music. who even cares? or e. why do you even care about vampires if they have nothing to do with edward? e. was mostly a joke. please don't tell me if you were thinking. it would be best if i didn't know.
side note. they're coming to the salt lake city in march. wanna join me?
i will not worry as much what others think. when someone hates me, they hate me. and sometimes, there's nothing i can do about it. i just need to not be sad about it. and move on.
my temple recommend will be used and worn. because it will have been used every week. and have attended every temple in utah. i will be closer to the Lord. because i really studied and pondered using my scriptures every day. and prayed on my knees with a heart full every morning and night. and not focused so much on myself and what i want. but focused on others in a heartfelt, caring way. and expressed my gratitude for everything i have. and received guidance in huge decisions of the year.
i will have a hot bod. from the gym. from xc skiing. hiking. running. and from rock climbing ( i hope ) and from eating really healthy. and knowing when to stop. stop eating, that is.
i will love everyone that i meet. and focus on the good that i see in everyone. and not the little things that annoy me. whether they listen to glenn beck or awful music, lack basic parenting skills, or talk too much. be a better teacher. and more confident. and put more time and effort into my preparation. and reflections. and reach out and be more assertive.
and i'll be super happy. because that's how i should be. no matter what happens this year.